it's over

i've been wiped clean of my defenses
you've taken them and turned them on me
i'm done with the games
so i stand alone
in the midst of the field
awaiting the vital attack
with my arms spread wide
like welcoming a lost loved one
what else is there to do
nothing
i can do nothing
you've taken all of my strengths
turned my weaknesses on me
i've nothing left
i must start from scratch
thank you, most sincerely thank you
i await the taste of my blood in my mouth
the blow to my heart that will send me to the gates of judgment
where i will forever be reconciled to a place where i finally belong
or doomed to have you linger in my thoughts for all of eternity
i envy those who don't know you
who have never had the chance to be forsaken
never had the chance to be twisted
twisted by your seductive words
your seductive actions that keep drawing me back in
so i stand here and wait
arms open, waiting to embrace the love of loss
to embrace the fact that you will finally cease to haunt my thoughts
my dreams
my hopes